So in the spirit of my love for yummy food, I would like to share some Sacramento restaurant recommendations (if you haven’t been to these places already!) So delish.
ORPHAN (Fresh, excellent variety.)
LUCKY CAFE (Best omelets and waffles!)
Cafe Rolle (Decadent French fare, friendly service.)
DEVINE (Sandwiches and the best gelato you will ever eat — made in-house.)
TRES HERMANAS (Good service, yum Mexican food. Very satisfying and flavorful.)
PRESS BISTRO (Great service, fresh food, great tapas.)
La Bombe Ice Cream — Buy my cookies! I think in a couple weeks! Their menu is just lovely and so sweet.
Enjoy everyone — I know I do! Please take care.
Oh my Madame President. We have worked so hard with you. We had a rough start (think colic, reflux, eeeek!) but we have really come together. You have been amazing lately. All you say is “Hi Mommy! I love you!” It makes me feel so good.
Sure, we have our downsides. But I am learning to be more patient and empathetic. When baby is happy, mama is happy. You get frustrated when pieces don’t fit. You are the pickiest eater in the world (which is just so ironic because I love to cook). You are a spirited little thing (like me). But oh man, you make my heart melt with your sweetness and your love for play and other people.
I hope we aren’t spoiling you. But I want to make sure all your needs are met during this time of family crisis. You truly are my bright shining star to get me through this dang thing called cancer.
I love you my Ella Mae, and I am here for you forever. You even have your own e-mail address so that I can write to you when my heart is full. Fancy girl.
That’s all for now, hug your littles and have a good Tuesday. Only two more days left of radiation and hopefully we’ll hear from U.C. Davis soon to arrange my chemotherapy.
Cooking and eating (relatively healthy — with the exception of cupcakes!) have really been helping to keep me calm. Oh. My. Pinterest.
I wanted to share a few more blogs/cooking ideas as they are too delicious and helpful not to!
(1) The first being these divine pretzels, I have already made them twice to rave reviews. You actually may want to make a double batch. I could eat these ALL DAY LONG. Use coarse salt and butter (I always use a healthy dose of mustard too when consuming), and I would check on them baking after 7 minutes or so. Also make sure the pan is nice and greasy.
(2) Basil Chicken in Coconut Sauce
Just plain and easy and yummy for dinner. Even Ryan likes it.
And (3) an easy chocolate cupcake recipe to fall back on. I love recipes that just WORK.
So happy baking and cooking, more updates on how I am doing next blog entry, just wanted to share some goodness this time around. Enjoy the long weekend!
Let’s start with some fun news first. Sweetie Cheeks (yes, my baking business is still up and running) will now be offering a selection of four cookies at a new, local East Sacramento ice cream shop called La Bombe http://www.labombeicecream.com/. Yay. La Bombe will be offering Sweetie Cheeks’ well-known flat macaroon cookie with coconut ice cream, a crisp chocolate chip cookie, a chewy peanut butter cookie, and a new Sweetie Cheeks shortbread cookie creation with sesame seeds, coconut, and pecans. I am really excited.
This is perfect because I have been looking forward to something like this for a while and it is an excellent distraction from all the challenges I have been recently given.
So, a little health update in addition to my fun baking news. Yesterday I had my Pet Scan (which is basically the scans of all scans). It was crazy. I have had one before but this one was a little different as they found an issue with my lung due to the recent lung biopsy. Ouch. I am on oxygen now and require a couple more x-rays to make sure I am breathing correctly. I am assuming I will be fine, I am not really short of breath and the oxygen does help. I am still walking, cooking, eating, typing, etc. so that is all good. I am pretending I am one of the old Italian guys in GoodFellas. It’s been hard to be away from Ella Mae though. I can’t wait to see her tonight.
We also got a more comprehensive review of what is going on in my body. So we are obviously dealing with the 5 brain lesions and are using radiation to hopefully rid my head of these horrible things. The Pet Scan showed cancer in both lungs (not too much of a surprise — this is an extension of my breast cancer) as well as in my spine (sigh — new news) and left scapula (another surprise). I definitely wasn’t expecting that. A lymph node looked ok so that’s good and they are still uncertain about a spot on my liver. Another sigh. This is just so much to retain. I just want to be better. I can’t believe a body I have been taking care of has done this to me. I am not perfect, I like to eat and drink and have fun, but I do exercise and love healthy food. Blah.
So. Treatment. We are getting a second opinion at U.C. Davis and I will do anything possible to get better. Chemotherapy is definitely in my future and I am praying for strength to get through this. Chemo is hard. It makes you feel so sick and helpless. A strategy that was brought up is that chemo may be administered once a week for two weeks, and then off for one week. They aren’t sure the duration or types of drugs as it seems like I will have to do a clinical trial.
So that’s all for now, I just want to share a bit of good news and provide status on what’s going on today. Thank you readers, I appreciate everything so much. Please take care. xoxo CP
So ….. We are actually doing ok. I’m very proud of myself. I am still scared, but managing it in a way I can handle and am starting to find small joys again in things I used to like before (Pinterest, clothes, etc.) Not being able to exercise has been very hard but that just would not be the most comfortable choice for my poor little head right now. I have been trying to take walks which can be extremely rejuvenating (but not the same as Zumba).
So, I had a bit of an epiphany yesterday as to why/how I’m doing ok (god I don’t want to jinx it). I just never felt 100% safe after I was given the all- clear from breast cancer last year on July 25. I kept waiting for the other ball to drop. Waiting for something to come back. I’m not sure why, I was trying so hard to function and live my normal life, but I just never felt good. I was tense, worried, and doing my best to fake it. It was awful. Not a day went by when i wasn’t struck by the fear that my cancer had returned, even in the smallest capacity. So with all these new developments, it just happened. The cancer came back and I have to be strong. I can’t control it but the other shoe has dropped and we are forced as family and friends to deal with it as tearfully and as gracefully as possible.
Sigh. Thank you my readers for listening. The outcome of support is so overwhelming and beautiful. I could not make it through the days without you. xo CP
Wow. It’s been a horrible two weeks to say in the least. But I’m here, so that is good. My breast cancer seemed to have come back, and not in any nice way. I had a terrible headache for weeks and it got so bad I had to go to the ER. It turned out cancerous lesions (5) made it onto my head and was causing all the pressure and suffering. Sad face. I had a shunt put in by a very nice neurosurgeon to relieve the pressure (thank goodness) and started brain radiation immediately. It’s actually going well, I’m just a nervous nelly a lot of the time. Radiation will be done in about a week but I think this might be the easy part.
So they’re not quite sure what they are going to do with me yet, my oncologist is out of town (well-deserved, he’s great) just because there are a few different things going on. I’m up for another PET Scan which scans your whole body radioactively and this darn lung biopsy. There may be a spot on my liver but they’re not super worried about so I can let that go. A lymph node in my right arm may be wanting to cause a problem but as my dad says, we probably have most of the bad information, and the doctors are going to collect it as to be able to research and make the best choices for chemo and I can get this junk out of my body!!!!! Dang my body is mad right now. It is begging for a Zumba class. I will be getting a second opinion at UC Davis and I keep reminding myself this is not hopeless, even if we don’t have a treatment plan yet. There seem to be a few options.
Each day is different. I’m tired. I try to be happy I have been given another day with my daughter. But shit, this is unfair. The weather is gorgeous and my wine is waiting for me! And wine sounds terrible! My job has been so supportive. My friends are truly angels. I have not been left wanting.
Thank you for listening. Life is so complicated yet so beautiful. I want everyone to do one fun thing this weekend cause its spring and everyone deserves it!!!!!! Seriously, I could not find the light of these past days without everyone’s continued support and love. It makes my heart full so I can pull through another couple hours and find a smile again. xo